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The Multi-Faceted Decavolty |
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In an effort to stay as open as, well, most of this journal, I've decided to dedicate this to getting to know my emotions. This'll probably turn into a mood thing, so be prepared.
We're going about this by color. I call it the '10 Shades of Decavolty'
1) Grey. It's the regular me. I'm generally neutral, probably unmotivated, among other things. It's not totally uncaring, but it's not really empathy either. Stoic fits here, because it's what I am. I listen, I offer advice, and I move on. It's no guarantee what I am really feeling when I feel like this, other than feeling a feeling of being in the middle. That's about the best way to describe this.
2) Blue. It's not me being emo. It's me not caring. It's me saying 'Get the ******** out of here', without saying it. The cold shoulder, if you will. If you've gotten me to a code blue, you're going to see me as passive aggressive as possible. Or maybe I legit dont care. Maybe I've never cared. If I'm ignoring you, then you're just something I dont want to see or hear, or talk about.
3) Black. You're not ready for me to describe this.
4) Yellow. Energized. Ready. I am forced to take this color with me to work. I'm the hardest working stiff back there. I can definitely hang in the truck, and for damn sure hang outside of the truck. I can get really territorial when I need to, but I'm never reckless. Just energized to the point where I do my job, and I do it right.
5) Red. Rage. Not love. If I'm angry, you've stricken the wrong nerve. If you strike that same nerve twice, then you've done it on purpose. If I dont yell at you, I'll find a way to vent. I'm fairly sure I have IED, so you may need to worry about that. If I find something to strike you with, I may just do it. Be very wary.
6) Green. Optimistic. Happy. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I call it my 'support' mood, because I do that. I can help you out of a sticky situation, and I can lead you through the darkness into the light. I have to use this one quite often as well. Mostly with customers.
7) Pink. Frisky. Horny. What can I say, all people feel this, I'm just man enough to admit it. I have feelings of lust, what can I say? At the moment, they're keeping me awake. sweatdrop When I feel like this, it's almost a combination of being optimistic and happy, and being energized and territorial. It's really hard to describe unless you take my body over for a moment.
8 ) Brown. Murky. Down. Depressed. "Feeling like s**t" (See what I did thar yet?). I love dirges, but I love them even more when I am in this mood. This mood easily goes to red, but I almost never get the opportunity to strike anyone. Oh well, it's better that way. Generally happens after a breakup, although sometimes it doesnt.
9) Orange. Inflamed. Passionate. If I'm passionate about something, it's going to happen. This feeling doesnt occur that often, because I'm naturally a slacker. When it happens, whatever the reason, it's going to happen. Whether it's 'meet this person', or 'get this done', it's going to happen.
10) White. It's empty. The Big Empty. Conversations do indeed kill in this mood. I dont know what to feel. It's not neutrality, it's an escape. This is the alternative to the brown when someone breaks up. My mind literally goes blank, and I have no clue what to think. Sometimes it makes me insane. Sometimes it makes me a genius. It's really perplexing.
 Decavolty · Thu Mar 26, 2009 @ 12:45pm · 1 Comments |
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