It's true. I sit here and do nothing and say I don't know what I want to do beyond college. I'll half a** my way into mediocrity and wonder why. I lack initiative, that is a large factor and my mass sloth could be too.. I'm just a bunch of potential that should have been made kinetic years ago. I guess admitting this is the first step but how do I progress? I know my problems but I don't attack them with vigor. I sorta prod them with a stick and hope there is a cliff behind it so it could all fall. *sigh* But the course of life will not always take away my problems. All it's doing is adding more.
I'm procrastinating and it's making everything worse.
Blah blah blah. It rained, depression, but the sun will shine. Whether or not I burn it in or just bask in the light is my choice I guess. *huffy puffy sigh* I know I'll be happier the day that I start acting but I lack initiative. Why do I make things so hard on me on purpose? Is it the whole, you can't fail if you never tried thing? Now that I think on it, it must be. sweatdrop I never liked disappointment and that has kept me from doing, asking, and saying so many things. Perhaps I should grow a pair and give it a go.
((There were clouds, it rained, depression.*must make this into a haiku* xD ))
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