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Today was so much fun in theatre. =] I can't begin to write in here what happened [and since Dr. Fleming took up my journal, I can write in my other one with no worries], but I found it really fun.

Later today wasn't so great... I felt utterly alone. Somehow, it seems as though I don't have any friends at the moment... I can't accept something. It bothers me to no end, and I allow it to hurt me deeply. In this chaos, I collapse and begin to break down...

...but before I can even begin to cry, I go to a place where I am not deliberately putting myself through pain. I'm welcomed [and I believe teased (in a nice, silly way)] there, and... I don't know. I just feel at home there. It's as though nothing can harm me, or tear me down.

When I'm there, I know that the people who are with me are there for me. They're encouraging me to go forward, and to not be afraid. They're always helping me... Sometimes I wonder if I should just turn to them, and stay with them.

I don't want to hurt myself anymore.