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...and I'm crying.

I detached myself from everyone because I didn't want to burden them or hurt them. I couldn't stand acting like everything was okay anymore--so I just stopped communicating in general, I suppose.

Somehow I feel like I'm always being attacked--I wish I didn't. I know [if you're reading this that you probably think] that I'm just being self-centered and selfish; that I think the whole world revolves around me.

I am not allowed feel sadness. I'm not in a "bad enough" situation to feel even remotely depressed. Everyone around me has "something worse". I know that comparing myself with other will only cause me to be "vain and bitter", but... sometimes I feel like I'm being told I shouldn't feel sadness, because I'm not "worthy" of feeling sadness, since my situation or cause isn't "bad enough".

Always conflicted. At least, it seems that way to me. I can't tell anyone why, though. I can't.

I won't.

It may seem terrible, but I love being in that small little room, with those same people. That small moment during the week means so much to me. It's as if I'm welcome there--there's no negativity.

I really am simple. And stupid. If anyone ever reads this, they'll probably just criticize me on my stupidity and selfishness, etc.

There's only one thing stopping me. It's good that it's something that's stopping me, but it's also pretty pathetic that it's the only thing stopping me.