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CuddlyDeathPrincess
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Wondering's of A Depressed Mind.
No one really truly reads these things so I feel quiet comfortable posting this to those that feel the need to have explanation to my apparent unhappiness. Though few actually seem to care enough to ask the rest of you that might read this will be glad to know that my feelings have merit.

Not one... but two of my friends are in a mental institution. One might ponder why? One for trying to take their own life, and the other for almost accidentally doing so. How does one accidentally do such a thing. Well knifes slip and the human psychy is fragile.

I do not wish anyone waking up to a frantic phone call of a friend saying they can't stop the bleeding..

Anyways... there you have it. Now you have me... Who is servely depressed and am thinking. "Hey if they can do such a thing with out regard for my feelings. Then why can't I?"

As the title of the journal says..

You probably wont read this.





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CouldntDeleteMyAccount
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comment Commented on: Mon Apr 27, 2009 @ 05:19am
Oh god hunny, I havn't been paying attention at all. Why didn't you call me? I'm going to call ok?

oh, and just so you know;

Don't you EVER do something like that. If you need me you call me. I don't care what time it is, where I am, what I'm doing, if I need a shower or not you call, got it?

Not that I'm a little iron fisted about this or anything...


comment Commented on: Wed Apr 29, 2009 @ 01:47pm
I'm sorry crying
I guess I don't know you well enough to. say much more...*hugs* hang in there!



Sage of Guilt
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comment Commented on: Thu May 07, 2009 @ 02:27pm
Whaza matta wichu?
Hang in there!


comment Commented on: Thu Jun 18, 2009 @ 04:31am
I'm not sure if you have any advice for this at all, but I think it's somewhat related.

What do you do when one of your friends is a cutter and it's all your fault?



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CuddlyDeathPrincess
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comment Commented on: Thu Jun 18, 2009 @ 05:19pm
First off Grey... It's not your fault....

I know I know I am being Hyprocritical when I say that... because a lot of the time when a friend cuts I feel like its my fault too.. but truely its not.

I mean they could really deal with their anger/sadness/depression/other feelings about you or themselves in soo many differnt ways that cutting is kind of a cop out. I know hyporcricial again but its true.... They could talk to you about why they feel like they need to cut because of you and such. I don't know hun... Talking to someone that cuts is really the best way.

Also I know this sounds awful but if its gets too bad... alert someone.


comment Commented on: Thu Jun 18, 2009 @ 07:54pm
Thanks.

I've tried to talk to her but she runs away, she said she had stopped for 3 months but then she did it again.

I don't know who I can alert cause i know she won't tell any adults the reason why she cuts.

I just have to hope she keeps up her non-cutting.

Thanks again.



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CuddlyDeathPrincess
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comment Commented on: Thu Jun 18, 2009 @ 07:59pm
Do her parents know?

My best friend in the world cut and on the night she was going to commit suicide I called her mom because of what she told me and it saved her life. Now we are room mates.

I guess its differnt but its not something to take lightly.


comment Commented on: Thu Jun 18, 2009 @ 08:02pm
No if her parents knew she would be out of school and in therapy.

If she was going to kill herself I would definitely call, but she amazingly doesn't want to kill herself. I don't understand it, but yeah.

I'm just scared because I know she would never tell.



PhazonGrey
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CuddlyDeathPrincess
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comment Commented on: Thu Jun 18, 2009 @ 08:04pm
Well...sometimes that is the best thing for a person. I don't know... When I used to cut it was a self loathing thing... Is she blaming herself or you for her cutting?


comment Commented on: Thu Jun 18, 2009 @ 08:09pm
She's blaming herself, but I know it's my fault. She would never had cut if she didn't meet me.

I guess I better explain.

Basically she thought I was in love with her when really I only thought of her as a friend, and she became so depressed she cut. She also used to stalk me too but thankfully that stopped.



PhazonGrey
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CuddlyDeathPrincess
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comment Commented on: Thu Jun 18, 2009 @ 08:20pm
*whistles* quite the perdicerment.

Well.. Truely it isn't your fault ... I mean she has plenty of time to find someone else and if she really thinks you are it... then she should try doing something to better her self.

More than likely there are other reasons she is cutting.


comment Commented on: Thu Jun 18, 2009 @ 08:22pm
Hmm .. I never thought of it that way.

Wow. Thanks a bunch Steph (name stealer!) that really helped. Hmm.



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