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...has been reached! I read to through page 268! =D Yeah! Now just about 85 pages to go! I can do it! >D [I just won't do the packet in government till Friday.]

Anyways... I got to thinking about the past... Although the trigger to this is rather silly... Because you see, I just watched this episode of Pokemon where Haruka traveled to the past and saw this guy Jonathan who was about to leave this girl he was in love with, and... yeah.

Although none of this really matters to me any more; it's just nice to think back on the good times, you know? Those times when I was so happy and full of hope [not that I'm not now--but my hope is directed toward something different].

You know, if it hadn't been for Jonathan, I wouldn't be where I am now. He was the reason I did theatre in my sophomore year, because I wanted to do something that I knew he enjoyed doing. I felt that I would have some sort of connection with him if I did... But then I ended up loving it. Although, I think if I had had a teacher other than Mr. Estelle for my theatre teacher that I wouldn't have come to be so passionate about it. Who knows, if I hadn't done theatre, I'd probably be doing color guard still, and not have as much of a clear decision on what I wanted to do with my life. I also would probably not be as happy as I am now.

I really do love theatre. I'm so amazed at how far I've gotten by just starting not even three years ago. I have a lead role in a play already! Although I think it is partly due to the fact that my teacher trusts that I'll memorize all my lines... I think it's something I just have a knack for [memorizing, that is]. Also, I think a reason he chose me for the role is because I wrote on my sheet that I wanted to be Lilly in Lilly's Purple Plastic Purse because I could relate to her. I guess he thought that if I had thoughts of a child that I should be Peter... Although I don't know what to think of that.

Right now I'm not doing so well with the role of Peter--I need to get my act together, and soon. The show is coming up real quick, and I haven't even crowed for anyone yet... I'm getting nervous, but I know I can do this. Mister Egret has faith in me, and I can't let him down.

Everything is becoming so overwhelming. I have two performances coming up--although I'm not even thinking about the improv. one--and I have a project due in practically a week, along with memorization [which I need to perfect]... And I need to write in my log sheets for RST... I'm just ready for the school year to come to a close.

I have no more pain! I endured it, and it's over. So I ran up and down the stairs at Kemah out of joy of the pain being endurable. I guess not walking all day Saturday [almost] and not walking at all today really got it to be better. Just needed some rest! =D

Although, it's difficult to breathe at times. I fell down earlier from a coughing fit... Lately there have been instances where when I breathe in, it sounds like I'm dying or something, so I try to cough to clear it, but it keeps coming back, until I [involuntarily] cough even more. It's getting better, though [I think]. I'm not sick, so I'm not quite sure what it is... because I don't have a cough--I just cough when that happens, and it happens sporadically. I think it's just congestion...

Wow this is a longer entry than usual... I should be writing in Dr. Fleming's journal, but oh well. I'll write in it after this reading check on Thursday. Stupid reading check... I can't believe he expects us to read over 200 pages in less than a week! I'm so slow at reading!! ><;

They want me to vacuum the whole house... I wish I could just keep with a consistent chore, like normal people [that do chores on a regular basis] do, but no, they just want to push me around to do whatever. Oh well. I shouldn't complain--the allowance is helping me out a lot.

Someone the other day asked me if I had fallen in love with someone, but that would be impossible for me at this present time, because I have yet to reach a level of understanding in life in order to fall in love. I still have so much to learn, so much to experience, before I can fall in love [with someone]. If I allowed myself at this time in my life to be blinded by a false impression of love, I do not believe I could reach my dreams and goals in life.

Wow that was weird. Anyways... It's late. Goodnight.