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Mar. 14th, 20**
Dear Diary,
...I broke up with Naoki today. Or Yamamoto-san I should say now.
I know, I know, I've been saying that for the past two years, but I really did it this time. But to do so, I said a few things I didn't mean... like he was obsessed with other girls, he wasn't attentive enough, and all sorts of sh!t. I also said he was too clingy, but I loved it... when he actually meant it.
I didn't bother mentioning Wakamura-san, AKA ex-best friend. Knowing him, he'd still go back to her.
Even though it's over, I feel like I did something wrong. Is that bad?
I hope not,
Ami
Mar. 20th, 20**
Dear Diary,
Naoki has been trying to call me all week. I blocked his number. He's also trying to talk to me during class and during passing period, but I always ignore his attempts. I also avoid him during breaks.
I know he's trying to say something, but I don't want to hear it. I have to get over him, I have to!
He really did it this time, you know? Sure, I overlooked him flirting with my favorite teacher, Torika-sensei, him cheating on me, and him looking at other girls ever since we went out, but he was about to kiss MY BEST FRIEND when he knew I was there!
How can I forgive someone like that?!
But no, I still feel like I've done something horribly wrong by dumping his butt. Sure, I've forgiven Motoko-chan, but I'm still giving her the cold shoulder. She's been trying to contact me too. I still refuse to talk to either one of them.
I'm not going to give in to him. I've forgiven enough!
Wish me luck,
Ami
Mar. 30th, 20**
Dear Diary,
THE NERVE! How DARE HE!
YAMAMOTO NAOKI, HOW DARE YOU, AFTER ALL YOU'VE DONE TO ME, KISS ME LIKE I WAS STILL YOURS? HOW DARE YOU LOOK ME IN THE EYES WITH THOSE GLITTERING GEMS YOU CALL EYES, AND TRY TO APOLOGIZE?! YOU HAVE NOTHING TO APOLOGIZE FOR!
AND ON TOP OF THAT, EMBARRASS ME IN FRONT OF THE ENTIRE STUDENT BODY?! HOW COULD YOU?! YOU HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO RIGHT TO EVEN TOUCH ME! NO, YOU'RE NOT EVEN GOOD ENOUGH TO BE IN THE SAME SCHOOL.
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Why me? Why? Why do I still love you?
Someone, anyone please... help me.
Ami
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Ami Seito loves Naoki Yamamoto. With every inch of her being, she loves him. She loves him to the point she has given just about everything to him, exclude her cherry, in which she WAS considering. But it's over now. Or at least Ami tries to convince herself.
Naoki loves Ami just as much. He truly, and whole-heartedly loves her. He only has one problem: he is a closet gal-game player. So whenever he sees a girl, he does what he does to his TV screen, or his GameMan: he stares and analyzes to the point he understands her. And he stares HARD, AND FOR A LONG TIME.
...okay fine, sometimes he does intentionally stare, but most of the time, NO!
But he couldn't tell Ami that. Dear God, no! She's the only girl he really understand without having to gape, and he wouldn't give her up for the world. He was so scared that if she found out, she'd think he was a freak, and dump him. It was his greatest fear that kept him up at night. So he confided in her best friend, Motoko Wakamura, and asked for her assistance.
So every week, on Wednesdays, Naoki and Motoko got together to help overcome his habit. They tried everything, but no matter happened, Naoki would stare at Motoko!
One day, they decided, even though they weren't together, they would try a kiss. They agreed it was for Ami's sake. And miracously, it worked! They tried the method on a random girl on the street, but Naoki realized, he only had to think about Ami's kiss to get him to stop! He was free!
But the next day, Ami dumped him.
At first, Naoki didn't understand. They were perfect together. But then it hit him. She thought he was cheating on her! He concluded she must have seen him staring, or, as much as he feared it, Motoko and him kissing.
So he tried everything to talk to her. He called her, went to her apartment, passed her notes, and he tried just getting her to look at him! But she wouldn't. He was starting to forget the feeling she gave him.
Out of hurt and a bit of anger, he finally caught her in the halls during the preparations of their annual festival. After kissing her, she literally pushed him off like she was on fire.
So began their tale of a huge misunderstanding.
"Ami, for God's sake, you know I love you! I can't take it anymore, please!" THAT LOOK. "Just let me hold you again!"
She felt her so-called, "iron-will," shattering for his deep, richly colored, honey eyes. She could never deny him when he looked at her that way. But not anymore. She refused to fall in love with... with...
"No! Naoki, we're over! Please stop talking to me! Let me go!" Look away, Ami. Look away! She felt his larger hand squeeze hers slightly. A familiar feeling that sent waves of both comfort and longing throughout her body. God, it felt to to know he was there again...
"Ami... please," his forehead on her back; another gesture she knew well, "Come back to me. You know Motoko-san and I would never hurt you. She was just trying to help..."
Anger. "Help?!" Yanking her hand from his, Ami faced him for the first time since they had broken up. She realized she was crying. "Naoki..." Desperation. "How can you say that? You and her... she and you... were... ugh! Just don't near me anymore!" Run, Ami, run! Get away! Don't look back!
"Ami!" Footsteps. "Ami! Ami, wait! Ami, please, just listen to me!" Pass the people, pass the buildings, back to where they first began: their neighborhood.
Stop.
Panting. "Ami..."
"Naoki, why are you trying so hard? We're over, you can cut the act."
Pant. Pant. Pant.
"Naoki?" Turn. "Eep!"
Close. "I love you. That's all I wanted to say."
 Ukeire · Tue May 12, 2009 @ 05:25am · 0 Comments |
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