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It's really saddening to me... That Mister Egret is leaving--because he got a house! A house is cool. I'm glad he got a house, and will have more space to dress up his cats, but... I won't ever ever see him again!

I learned about this at rehearsal today... Just now. "What, you just found out now?" WAAH! How was I supposed to know?! It's not like I'm that important in his life...

I started crying though, and Kara asked if I was okay and a shook my head no, but I couldn't tell her. I couldn't possibly tell her that I was going to miss Mister Egret. It's such a silly reason to cry... It's okay for Ashley to cry, because she actually talks to him, but I don't...

Jen asked if I was okay, and Mister Egret was in the room, so I nodded, but then only wanted to cry more, because I lied, even though I wanted to tell the truth--that I wasn't okay.

I was just crying silently, but still... I felt like crying full-out, but I wouldn't let myself. I don't want to bother them... Especially with my silly feelings.

Although today, Mister Egret said goodbye and thank you to me, even though I didn't do anything, but I was already past the corner, so I turned back and said bye. ><; I can't believe I did that! I never do that... I'm hoping--no no not hoping. I'll definitely talk tomorrow to them! It'll be silly, whatever I end up saying, but at least I'll have said something... Maybe I'll talk about Kumon? No no, that'd be weird, if I just started talking about Ivan... umm... I don't know...

None the less, I hope I can talk tomorrow. It'd be great if I could... I'm going to miss him so much, though! He's the one that introduced theatre to me... if it weren't for him, I don't know where I'd be. Theatre has gotten me through so much, and although this may seem strange, it's given me a reason to live [in a way]. I finally have something I'm passionate about...

I have to go eat dinner. Goodnight.