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Really, it's hard to actually run a race to beat the s**t out of it.
It's weird though, people will say "My heart hurts when he does that, he hurt my heart, she hurt my heart, my heart is broken." Blah blah suck the ******** up.
Really it's just your emotional self. How you take things personally, sometimes you just take it to personally. I know I have. And I hate it, sometimes....I wish I couldn't feel anything ya know?
But there are ways of making yourself emotionally numb. You may call them cutters, druggies, people that make bad decisions. It's nice to get away and feel nothing.
My favorite thing is when I just sit in the dark with music playing, but you don't really hear the music you feel the emotion behind it, instead of you feeling something you're feeling what the music is telling you to feel. So in the end you arent feeling your actual feelings.
Anyways I've realized I just need to stop feeling things. I need to put my emotions in a box and forget about them. Then you can't get hurt right? You wont get hurt and feel like natural s**t.
I wont be posting for awhile. I've got a few things to do.
 RadicalRosebud · Fri Aug 21, 2009 @ 01:49am · 0 Comments |
