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Jesus christ, I have had two relation ships and they both ended badly. The first guy I was with for three years and promised me marriage and what not then after I dumped him because I couldn't deal with him flunking college, not having a job, and living with his parents I come to find out he was in love with another girl the entire three years.

About a month later I started to date another guy who said he's been watching me on campus for the past three months also because I lived in the hall that his friend was an RA. He dumped me after a month because he loved another girl too and he said I deserve love and attention he could never give.

Now here I am a month late crying in my misery. Before I left school to go home for break I went to an open mic night with a friend because one of my guy friends wrote me a song and it was going to be played there. It was a song about my smile which made me happy. My friend who has known this guy for years talked to him and asked him if he had a crush on me, which he replied he did, and of course she told me. It doesn't help that he looks a little too much like the boyfriend of three years.

After that a friend of ex number 2 who I talked to from time to time, especially on myspace said some nice words to me and I asked him why was he being so nice, which he replied that he had feelings for me and wanted to make me happy and what not, which I have still not replied to.

Then the other day I got a call on my cell. It was the ex of one of my friends asking if we could go out sometime. I love this friend dearly and would never do anything to hurt her, and this guy may seem sweet, but did some bad s**t to her. He called me again today to reply to one of my posts on how I am useless and what not and said some nice stuff until my phone dropped the call.

So earlier today I took my laptop to a hotspot to talk to one of my girlfriends up north. She giggled and told me she knew of someone else who liked me but she couldn't tell. After much bugging I brought up a question about another friend which she then again giggled about. I asked if he was the one that liked me and she said yes. The bad thing is, I like this guy too, but can't admit it to him because he's too good of a friend to lose.

After telling all of this to my beloved mother she just tells me to act ignorent and play it out for a while to see how it goes. Ack, since when do guys like me anyway?