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Her thoughts are not just mere ramblings... they're her heart and soul...
Have you ever felt that you're meant for something more, you're just not sure what it is? Like this empty void inside of you that yearns to be filled? Or maybe it is filled, with this burning longing for something that you have no idea what it is? I know I want to do something great, but I'm not sure what it is. I long to be something more than I am, feel like I have some other purpose than to play the confidante and little sister to everyone and bide my time til someone needs me. I want to be something more... even... I just... I don't know what... I feel so lost and lifeless just waiting for it to come to me. But by the same token everything seems to go wrong when I try to reach out to find it. I feel cursed to no end when that happens and there's seldom a time when I don't want to throw a tantrum from frustration. Am I stupid for this? Being doltish and unreasonable? Or do I make even a modicum of sense to anyone? It's been so long since I've felt the rush of accomplishment... Not even music consoles me at this point... I don't know how much longer I can stand not having a clear purpose... I don't know what I'm doing, and I don't know what I am to do... How am I to be something more without a hint as to what it should be?

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