Alright, yesterday totally sucked. I hate Thanksgiving. Last year, on Thanksgiving, my cousin died. It was the saddest thing I could have ever imagined. He was only two or three when he died. That shouldn't have happened. He should have been able to live a happy life and grow up and have friends and get married and have kids and none of that can happen now. I think I'm cursed to have family members die on holidays. Logan died on Thanksgiving last year, Great-grandpa died on Christmas in 2005, and Uncle Leonard died on New Year's this year. I'm running out of happy holidays. I know I should let them go and move on with my life, but it's just so hard, you know? I wish I could live my whole life without any sadness.... But that's impossible. So I just try to be happy.... Plus, since my parents divorced, I've had to split my time to fit into two different Thanksgiving dinners. I always have to leave one early to go to the other one. And when I'm at either one, I feel like I don't belong because they have their own happy little families on their own and they don't need me to complete it. God, I need to stop complaining....
 Beauty from the darkness · Fri Nov 27, 2009 @ 07:11pm · 1 Comments |
