I had spent my whole life alone. Then I learned to love and it felt so right...... I gave my heart away.... How was I supposed to know that it would break? How was I supposed to know that I would break my own heart? Maybe this was fate..... Maybe it was supposed to happen...... And maybe I screwed up and this is not the way it was supposed to be...... But either way, this is what happened..... He gave me something that no one else had...... He gave me a reason..... For what, who knows? But I had a reason. Maybe it was a reason to live, to keep going...... But when he was gone, so was my reason...... But it made me realize that I didn't need a reason. I could go on living, even with the pain and the sorrow, as long as I had the happiness. And the happiness didn't leave with him. So I kept going. But the change hit me hard..... I realized that I couldn't do or say all the things that I had gotten used to...... And now, I'm afraid to give my heart away again...... I don't want my heart to break again..... I don't want to break my own heart...... Again..... This is my change, Michael. I'm not sure how to react to change and this is it...... I may be reluctant to give my heart to you, but you have to accept that..... Please..... I just need you to be patient with me........
 Beauty from the darkness · Wed Dec 02, 2009 @ 02:34am · 1 Comments |
