*sighs* the past few days... expesaly today have been hell for me... me and my mom fighting non stop, i almost blew a hole in the wall punching it so hard and so furiously... im dead sick in the mornings i can hardly move nor speak untill i take some nasty med i usualy just throw back up.. and now me and the only person that can make everything seem right again, Nick, might be leaving me...only time i had salvation from everything was when i was blinded from everything by him... everything just blurred around me and seemed so great.. nothing could ever go wrong... earlier today we switched msn accounts.. he was on mine and i was on his.. it was rather fun and entertaining untill i saw someones profile... in his msn he has a secton titled "megan" course, i was there.. and another email, i cheaked her profile and she had his name in it "<3 Nick <3" earlier Nick asked me to see his new profile... which for the first time sence we started dating did it say "long term relationship" and with "<3 Megan <3" in it... course this other girls name is megan... so i got freaked right away and told him im guna put my last inital by it.. he got sidetracked by the snow outside so i just did it and i had to leave soon after word. when i came back i cheaked his profile curiously and what do you know... my inital was gone. he said he didnt want his friends to know about me, yet he had that name still in his profile.. by now i was so convinced he was cheating i was in tears talkin to him... pathetic yes i know. i went back to see if i could get into his account to cheak something i didnt when i was in and he had changed password (surprize surprize) and like immidently i thought "he is hiding something from me"... theres much more i will add at a later time... for now no one must know... untill it happens...
 playwithfire · Thu Nov 25, 2004 @ 04:53am · 2 Comments |
