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I'm really not suppose to be online because my mom actually bannned me from all electronic devices. The Reason why?.....Well 1 day i was feeling sad because i had yet again fell asleep watchin a movie with erin....but alll chaned when my mom had her new bf. its been all but trouble with that a*****e. He keeps makin fun of me and i really dont know why, and why he does it. It bothers me cuz he acts like he's my dad, which i dont like.....So i told my mom that i hate him, and she got pissed....she was so mad at me that she actually told me 2 break up with erin
and im like....WTF!!! T.T
and she kept yelllin at me and smackin me around. I couldn't fight bak, so it had to go like that 4 like 5 mins or so. So i finally said with my heart fading away that i will do it.....so i did...on a txt, she was so sad...=[ I didnt mean it to be like this. I shouldve just kept my big mouth shut. Then my mom takes my phone. Luckily that she has no gud hiding place so i use it when shes at work or with her fat lazy a** bf....and when i told erin that i didnt want to 2 break up, and i tried to say that my mom frced me 3 do it, she took it the wrong way. And im still trying to get out of this situation. Her sister won't let me talk 2 her, and i'm worriedthat she doesn't love me anymore. I'm not gonna quit cuz she's my soulmate, the 1 i want to be with. I hpe she still has those feelings....I went to her journal....seems as if she's confused but I really hope she still has her feelings for me sad Maaybe ii'm a horrible person after all........