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If I left would I make your pain go away? Or your sorrow? Or maybe your ability to hurt people only affects me...

All the stuff you promised never would happen to me did.
But it's not your fault.

A cut and a tear for everything and everyone, you wanna know what?

- One for my father, who never saw past his own troubles to see how much I was hurt by his actions.
- One for my mother, who wasn't physically able to take care of her three children.
- One for my sister, who couldn't control her own actions. She'll be a shell, always needing care.
- One for the brother who mentally tortured me more than I let on but less physically than I made note of.
- One for the boy who may never get over me. I told him he was wrong, maybe he'll stop using his stalker-like ways now...
- One for the person I promised the world I'd never be. ... She's the side of me you'll never see.
- Ten for the people I've fooled. There probably should be more, but it hurts so much now I've lost count.
- One for...
- And another for...
- And seven for...
- And two more for...

Their names will go unwritten, because they aren't coming back. Ever. ... Were they even real? I wouldn't know, I don't even think I'm here half the time...

Just remember, all of this was my fault, never yours, don't worry about me, people are already overflowing with unnecessary pity for this broken toy, this scarred soul, this innocent whore...