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love won ...
love lost ..
so much stress...
so much ... things
i wish it didn't have to end like this ..
i never wanted it to ...
i still love her ...
and she still loves me ...
but parents make things difficult ...
and just staying friends seems awkward ...
we have been through so much ...
why now of all times to give up?
i want to love ..
i wish to love ..
i do still love ..
but it all ended today ...
not 3 days before our 4 month
...
i am a fool
to throw away such genius ...
i need a smack in the face ...
a cut on the arm ...
and a kick in the butt ...
the happy feeling is gone ...
i am only depressed ...
i have lost my only happiness ...
( except for the Lord of course )
i have lost my path ...
my direction has changed ...
For better?
For worse?
i don't know ...
my sister thinks just being friends might help out..
that life with her may be better after this stress is figured out ..
but until of which i grow more mature..
the wait will kill that of a lonely soul...
















heart i will always love her ... Always heart