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Sinister
ill write everyday the bad or good things that happened everyday :3
My Instruments
Now, whoever is reading this, ur probably wondering...why is his title called "My Instruments" well basically its self explanitory... u see i have these beliefs i follow, that i've made up. It keeps me for who i am. There are a total of 10 Instrumewnts and no they are not instruments like the violen, guitar, bass, drums, flute, or any other crap u think of. I myself use these instruments to guide everyone plus myself the right way. Now in my mind, i dont believe in an god, or any other nonsese in that nature. Yes i am an Athiest, but i have a good reason for it.... I have the free will to listen to my heart. I dont think of any other person's comments or watever they want me to do. No. no one tells me wat to do. I am myself, I keep myself going, no myth or a book tells me wat i can or cannot do. I do wats right to me. I know right from wrong, i know my actions reflect on me, and i know that deep inside, no one is better than me, and no one is lesser than me. Everyone is equal in their own way. We are the one's who control everything that happens. Not something we cant see but we read about it. Yes, I use to be christian, i did believe in jesus. But 1 day....i prayed upon him...He didnt accept my prayer and took the life of my best friend (R.I.P Jerome) He went through Cardiac arrest in hospital after seeing his dad shot in front of him..... After that i hated everyone...everything...espcially Jesus, few days afterwards. I've quitted my religious belifs of him and went my way. i think only 4 myself. No one else. Later on in years... I've been through the trouble of my dad...brining upon the devil inside me. He's my darkside, my shadow. The person who does evil things, the person who reflects my mirror, the person i wanna get rid of. But my dasrk side taught me somethin....He told me to not trust everyone u meet. People will go behind ur back and before u know it....a back stab. He taught me that, hate is power. and power becomes greed. Greed becomes relentless assault, which turns to death on the battlefield. He's been....good tio me..... But harmful in a way....voices in my head....tears from my eyes, love in my heart. Hate in my soul.Later on...i found someone...very grateful to me. Her name is Erin...I was a total a** to her....but somehow she kept being nice to me. And later on that 1 day...i started being nice to her back. The cold Heart of mines slowly turned red....warm....and i felt happy again....we talked and soon dated...its been since the 8th grade since we've dated. Couple days ago...we've separted...Because of 1 person who she believes in. And that person is Jehovah....He's wrong...bt i cant argue. For her sake...I've respected his wishes and letted her go. But only 4 this day....My instruments guided me the way to al of this, i letted go my feelings for her safety. I myself miss her. But as long as i have my instruments. Nothing will keep me away from her. The 10 are, Fate, Hearth, Despair, Will, Forgiveness, Change, Intelligence, Gift, Health, and Hope. I will talk about my instruments later on cuz my hands are tired >.< cya around peopel biggrin





 
 
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