I am feeling hallow...
Not like a hallow man, but similar...
I am tired of blows, even when I don't expect them, I receive a sucker punch to the gut.
Finding out people dislike, or are wary of me is and my intentions is very striking, and painful.

I feel unsteady, unbalanced.....And I can't even be angry at the people whom are wary of me, though a part of me wants to.