Okay, I'm not actually sure what to put in here so you'll just have to bear with me. I'm making this up as I go.
As you all can see, my name is Kitty. I'm 19, soon to be twenty on the 26 of this month. Thank you thank you. I know I'm old compared to some of the new blood on Gaia but you know what? I'm not too worried about it. I'm in college and let me tell you, it's enough to make anyone go bonkers. Seriously. Why would anyone make a school outside of school? Is high school not enough? Really? Why do we need to know all this crap. Maybe we should go back to the old days where trades were taught with families? Oh well. It's not the way it is today and now I'm going through the craziness of college. And let me tell you, it's crazy. Not like the 'oh she's a little weird' crazy but the 'psycho b***h of a gf who's going to kill you in your sleep' kind of crazy. It's a lot of work and I'm not really sure if I'm completely ready. I've been there for a year already and let's just say, I could have done better than I did but now I'm working to get it back up and running again. Maybe this year will be better.
Basic things that have stressed me out lately:
My big sister's wedding:
It's soon and well, everyone is stressed out. With all the preparation and all, it's kinda crazy. We're trying to get it situated and ready but it's not easy. If you have ever seen people getting ready for a wedding, trust me the ending result is nothing like the process of getting to the result. Watch Bridezillas. You'll see.
My life work gone:
I just found out recently that well, everything I had done over the years has been lost, stories, poems, drawings, all of it. Talk about heartbreak. It hurt me so bad to find it all gone. It's just another notch on the belt.
Me not really crying anymore:
Needlesstosay, crying is a big part of people's lives. Don't say it isn't. Even tough guys have to cry every now and than. Well for us girls, it's like a monthly thing. It's kinda needed and well, with what has been happening in the past year, I should have cried, a lot. But I didn't. Lately I've just been locking it away either because that was not the time to be crying or because of the people around me. I don't want them to see me cry. So I hold it back. Lock it behind a closed door, adding it to the river slowly building on the dam. Well I can feel something about to break and let me tell you people, it'll either be me or my insanity. Now it's just a race to see which one happens first.
College stuff having to be done:
This is is just annoying. Not really stressful. But I wanted to add it to the stress line. Just to make it known that college stuff is bothersome.
Until next time people,
· Thu Jul 15, 2010 @ 07:43am · 0 Comments