so this year has been a lonely year
with people taking advantage of my loneliness

friends lost... entire high school load
friends earned... 2
people helped... really not much at all
people who disappointed me ... all smile
heart broken... 26 times.
hours cried... 126 hours.
people who i can really talk to... no one.

numbers are outrageous, my heart is shattered, and my family... is really unhappy to see me.
so i did not deserve all this crap from people, i think its true.
but atleast i was true to myself and to my beliefs
to fight people who only make me drown in woe
people who dont give me a chance
people who lead me on
people who are disloyal, and only a pain in the a**
people who are liars
those kinds of people.

atleast i have my room and my net .. and food to be thankful for.
although im heart broken and have no one to rely on anymore
nope nothing, nobody

new years resolution
i will never trust again, never love again, and never make friends again.

will someday be happy away from people who caused me such grief
why? coz for some reason they dont want me to be happy, jealous of what little things have. why do i even need people anyway?
they only cause me grief.