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I am un sure about how I really feel. I wonder who I am and what I am doing? I feel like all my days run together now. but drugs will do that to you. My last entry I mentioned a boy named Eric. I am kind of seeing a new boy, who is not Eric. This with Eric got mixed up but thats okay, like I said I never really planned on dating Eric. This new boy his name is Kyle. He has brown hair and stunning blue eyes. Thinking of him can some times drive me crazy. I think about how uncertain everything is, what makes him any different? I can't say if im happy, I never really felt to happy about anything. I like to think Kyle is happy. Is that all im doing this for? Kyles happiness?what If one day I just stop caring? Will I get to disappear from his life?