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Ello every one I don't really care who reads this but I'm gonna be using this for current things I wish to talk about which can range from ideas to loves and the like or just plan (Of corse) bitching. So far my day has been rather good even though in the back of my heart I still long for a relationship were I can love some one fully and get it back in return because well I had a taste of what it's like and I found I loved it. Now that it's gone I kinda feel sad and mopy and rather empty.
Every one seems to believe I'm to young to be wanting this that I should be having flings like most of my age group or be total romactic off mod but sorry I can't do that my morals get in the way of flings and my cravings to be with some one means I can't do the later but the problem with this is most of my own age group are in no way ready for that so I constantly have to look other places then my peers as I'm the different one. Ok lets finish this b***h fest with a good poem and then I will talk about art k? Good.
Beds
Laying here all alone
The shadows darkly silently mocking me and my mistakes
Rolling and turning in the empty sea of sheets wondering why I let slide away
In a bed Cold as marble and just as hard I lay here staring at the ceiling in woe
Alone in the darkness the moon my only companion through a Jaded window
Longing for the sound of a sleepy contented sigh
The smell of raspberries and care
Loathing the feeling of emptiness around me, I reach next to me to only find a hollow in my bed
I wonder when they’ll be back or when some one will fill that spot
Many have tried but they all have left never filling that hallow right.
So I lay her waiting for that hallow to become full or fade away
All the while knowing that that wish shall never truly happen, as the shadows silently mock me in the night.
Ok now that that is out of my system. I"M SO GIDDY!!!!! blaugh blaugh blaugh 3nodding 3nodding biggrin biggrin I got canvases from my art class and oil paints! This is gonna be so much fun even if the subject isn't something I totaly like. It's gonna be self portrates I desided for mine all I have is my face resting in my arms so the lower part of my face is covered while I wear my cowboy hat with my curly hair coming out around it it's gonna be so cool when I finish if I can I'll try and post it up here.