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Why the ******** can't i function like and normal human being?

Without sounding like a complete arse, when it comes to men I usually get what (well, who) I want. But when I get them I don't want them anymore.

Yes, I know, what a heartless b***h I am. It just happens though. I like a lad, then they'll get too close, and I just don't want it, any of it, anymore.

Why? They're always such lovely boys and top friends as well, so I just end up hurting them and coming off as a total t**t to everyone else. Which I am, I am a t**t, I see it but I can't change how I feel.

I could just not get in relationships I suppose. But then I'd get no action. Well, I could, but then I'd be a whore.

And its not even like I can do friends with benefits, because the same thing happens, as soon as they agree to it, I don't want it anymore.

I may just have to give in and admit i like the chase more than anything. I'm such a man.

Or maybe its the boys, maybe they're intrinsically wrong for me. Genetically wrong.

1st world problems.

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