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To a girl that will and always have a piece of my heart.

All I want is for you to let me love you, but you won’t. I want you to stop pushing me away, when you need comfort, and you need someone to vent to. It’s not good to hold everything in all of the time. When you’re upset, it affects me so much, it hurts me. I don’t like it when you’re sad, because I’ll do anything just to try to make you smile again. I care about you, and I always have since the first day that we started talking. It’s aggravating, because I want to take care of you, I want to protect you, but I can’t. You put up a barrier, that I’m unable to get around. I never know what you’re thinking, I don’t know how you feel about me, or if I even cross your mind anymore. Every time I attempt to try and start a conversation, because I ******** miss you, I end up getting these negative vibes from you. Like you don’t want to be bothered by me, as if I’m annoying you, when that’s the last thing I want to do. It’s hard to get a response from you, that’s longer than one or two words. I want to help you, I want to be someone that you can depend on when you need to. But I guess that’s not what you want. What you want is distance from me. There’s not one day that goes by, that I don’t wonder how you’re doing, and if you’re okay. I always think about us, and how our relationship used to be, how close we were with each other. I’m worried about you. Simply because at one point in my life, you meant everything to me. It’s such a horrible feeling, not knowing, but you don’t want me as a part of your life now. I guess I should respect that, right? I’ll provide you with space, once again. I know you don’t give a s**t, but I love you more than anything in the world, I hope you remember that, even if you don’t believe it.