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I feel as though i've never been so ANGRY.

I'm SAD, I'm MISERABLE, I'm ANGRY, I'm PISSED... MAINLY (for the moment) I'm f*cking furious.
I hate you.
I HATE you.
I HATE YOU.
I. HATE. YOU.
SHOVE OFF, GO F*CKING DIE.
It's no good.
You're scum.
A pathetic little b*tch so diluted and corrupted by the world that you think it's okay to throw other people into an ocean of misery without even glancing to see if they can swim.
You are a traitor.
I thought I was safe,
Thought i could trust you
How wrong I am.
You've finally shown your true colors.
I wish I could pull you into the ocean and wash them out of you.
But it's FAR too late,
All I can do is hate you, ignore you, and avoid you.
But you won't let me.
You insufferable cow!
I wish you no harm or death.
I just want an escape!
"I love you"
Because it's demanded!
"I hate you"
Because you've EARNED IT.
My anger is ebbing, but for you it has frozen.
A new wall has formed,
And I know much better than to let you ever cross it.
.....
Now it seems I have lost any strength i've had.
I'm tired.
I'm not the type to fight.
I want my space.
I want my sanctuary.
And then,
I want to quickly reach the end.
But not this way.
Please, don't let me drown...