Well... its been quiet a few days now sence me and Nick broke up... and im putting out a good effort to be alright... its goten to me infront of hannah before and i find myself going off and doing something i promised to others and myself i wouldnt do... writing very dark poetry which when i read over i actaly scare myself with... and at night sometimes if im feeling that depressive swing over my mind i make sure everyones asleep... take a tack from the poster above my bed and scratch it across my wrist, i didnt show anybody when it was bad, i havent cut myself nor will i. thats something i just wont do... but ive tried once before... Casey managed to get that craving out of me and totaly stoped me and now im not going near my dagger again. just the lil tacks... i showed hannah then the scratchs were faded when she read my poem... i shouldnt of done that really, shes worried about me now. i dont want anyone to worry... im guna be fine. Nick made his choice with the right idea in mind and i have accepted them. just gota get threw them now. i may write the poem out some other time, i dont have my book with me at the moment... other then that i was good today at skool, wore my christmas bells around my neck as a collar for the first of Dec. i couldnt help but smile and laugh when people called me reindeer, santa or an elf. its amusing, boosted up in math a lil bit from the test i had... still failed it which im upset with. i felt as though i did well i knew what i was doing. im guna stay with the teach and get some more marks on it for corrections. and the current stuff were doing i find doing it actraly enjoyable cuz i understand it well. exponents and s**t xp yeah. *takes the pictures of Nick out of my pocket i took down from my locker* Hmm... *hides them in the book beside me where i scribble down notes and stuff when needed* things just are'nt guna be easy... im prolly guna be slow but im getting there... yup. And this is mainly for Zodiac_Dragons comment a few pages back... im not doing as well as you thought, kid, sorry to loose any respect *shrugs*
 playwithfire · Thu Dec 02, 2004 @ 12:26am · 1 Comments |
