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I'm really sad and I want to drink my sadness into oblivion, but that isn't healthy and also I have work tomorrow. ******** work. There's a huge part of me that just wants to quit, stay in the apartment until my lease runs out and go back home to be a shitty neet with my parents. I miss my home and family a lot. Hanging out with them is genuinely fun, especially now that they're all proud of me a s**t. But I guess going back home would probably make them less proud. I don't know.
It's not an exaggeration to say the the two biggest reasons I want to stay in this city are because of my friends (the ones who are staying at least) and because there are really great restaurants and H-Mart is here. If there was and H-mart in my home town, and I had the ability to drive and a car that I could drive anywhere, I would probably move back home. And at least get an apartment there, where the rent isn't the most ******** expensive thing ever. Seriously ******** this place and it over inflated rent prices.

I need a dog. I've been feeling so shitty and depressed ever since Lola died. Every time I see a dog that looks remotely like her I feel like crying. I seriously almost started crying on the bus because someone was holding a dog that look vaguely like her. I just miss her so much.

I need to do my art so that I can start making money off it and quite this s**t job as soon as possible. But said s**t job is currently making me so exhausted that I can't do the art.

I know this is probably what every Young College Graduate goes though, and it's going to go away. But right now I just feel like s**t. I need to go watch some gundam or something.