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Sometimes I really don't understand why I do the things I do. I'm just gonna die anyway. Why do I feel like I need to do things in life so I can accomplish things when in reality, one day, I'll be dead and no one will remember my name or who I was or what my story was? No one will even care. This is so meaningless. Everything. I don't get why I feel obligated to participate in life. Human instinct? When I really sit down and think about all the s**t I've gone through and all the s**t everyone else has gone through, I have to ask myself why we go through ******** up s**t and still keep charging through life like it's the right thing to do. You think you're strong for living.. I think I'd be stronger if I killed myself.. because that's the scariest part of life. No one has any idea of what happens after death...
Graduation
I've been thinking a lot about graduation. And I can't help but realize how much I will miss being in high school. Not having to pay bills or worry about much besides my depression and school work. Don't get me wrong, high school is pretty tough. But It gets harder when you leave for college. And yes, I'm going to college. Pretty scary yet pretty exciting. I can do this.. I think.



~Queen Of Disaster~



 
 
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