Well, I guess it's about time I did another one of these. *cracks my fingers, then my back* Here goes. Please forgive any typos you spot, I'm getting used to new glasses today. I hope it turns out all right.
So, what's new with me? Insomnia. Nightmares. Night terrors.***
I wake up most mornings not breathing. I'd been holding my breath for 5 minutes. Normally, while awake, I can't even hold my breath 15 seconds. In my sleep I apparently have a strong urge to die. Don't know why. *shrugs*
….so, last night I finally got enough sleep. it took my surrendering the game system I adore up to my mom until 12:00PM the next day. I'm glad I did. It was the first time in 3 months I have had a full night of sleep. I went to bed at 12:10AM and I woke up to take my medicine, then went back to sleep until 11:40AM. I didn't wake up at all until my Mom came in, worried I had been there that long.
But I feel alright. I feel like myself for the first time in months... years
. I'm single, and I am a 24 year old woman who is ready to take charge of her life soon! I can't wait anymore! I wanna start looking into college here. I don't really care when I start. I'm not doing anything here. And if I really want to take myself seriously, I should take art classes and Art History, 'cause it's my second best subject other than languages.
When I was a teenager, I realized I wanted to take my art teacher's job when I grow up. No, I'm not spiteful toward her; she hated me because she misunderstood me. She gave me straight D's, saying everything I brought in looked like I painted when I was 6. I was so mad, I almost blew up in her face. But. That would've meant I had to admit I smoke pot for pain and focusing.
But. Butta butta battah butt--
She got fired. biggrin
I couldn't received any happier news.
So that is why I feel motivated to become the best artist I can be, and be an art teacher someday. I don't expect it to be instant (like instant grits, mmmmmm) but more gradual than cooking a pot roast. And yes, I am starving. How are you? PM me if you can, and if you can't, that means you're not friends with me yet and YOU SHOULD ADD ME I'M LONELY Aaaahh okay, okay, but in all seriousness, add me because I'm awesome. 3nodding
Also, I *totally* didn't spend half of today watching Fairy Tail and drawing naked women---