Originally written Mar 15, 2019
I picked up a hitchhiker yesterday as I do on occasion. She was about an hour drive from her destination and we had plenty of time to talk. The details aren't important but the interaction made me realize that my attempts at self improvement are going too slow and that my hesitation to better myself is costing me opportunities. Up till now I've been working on my small issues (like buying crap ot of the vending machine at work) before going after the big ones (like quitting smoking) but I seem to keep stumbling on the small ones. I think I may be subconsciously sabotaging myself, failing the small tasks so I never have to face the big ones. This needs to change, now. Unfortunately it's hard to gain the upper hand when fighting oneself. I don't have an answer for this, truthfully I have no idea how to go about this, perhaps I should enlist help. I don't have a proper closing for this entry, nor any real message to take away from it, but I felt I should write it down, seems important.
all_winters_eve · Sat Jan 18, 2020 @ 06:23am · 0 Comments |