Hmm.
Being on the meds, it's been kinda hard to squeeze thoughts out as chaotically as I have in the recent past
but I do think about my identity issues a bit more.
The whole bellydancer thing that I liked before, it never did feel right, because I always had a big smile waiting to crack behind every negative situation.
but as a clown, things feel a lot more natural, but there's always that looming expectation to be funny... but I kind of just ignore it to be honest LOL
I think, having been a clown for the 3rd time in my entire life span so far, I think this is where I belong, expectations be damned lmao
I mean, if there's one thing I know I'm good at, it's entertaining people without bringing them too close (Unless I decide to mess that up and approach them myself emotion_donotwant but that's my fault! emotion_awesome )
anyway, if gaia is still around by the time I get my life sorted out decently enough, then I can look back on this journey to tell another ambitious soul one day.
Life is indeed full of bumps, holes, cracks, and other deep things that people can fall in
BUT one thing is for sure, if you keep hoping and have faith even when life keeps throwing rocks at ya, then things can and will get better!
It's not easy, but if life ever gives you a smooth road, you miiight want to think about why it's so smooth emotion_donotwant
COMPLICATE THE HECK OUT OF THINGS!
better that than having a head full of mind spaghetti later.
Anyway, that's the plate of Coqo for the day... week? I don't know how frequent these things are going to be anymore lol
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