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A Conversation with Myself
If you're not me, you'd only be here if you went out of your way to look. Turn back, or buckle in, bucko.
Seeing as I don't really have anyone to talk to, and a lot on my mind...

I'm about to dump a huge load of trash here (or that's at least how it feels).


So let's start with the fact that every time I start on a project, want to get people who mean a lot to me... on board.... either the timing is that horrible, or nobody wants to get near me.

Note that when I work on anything, my mental state takes a plunge, that I desperately do my best to hide to the best of my ability.... even so much as to laugh it off like it's nothing.... No one apparently knows unless I say so.....

Yet no one ever wants to get involved when I show any sort of enthusiasm for it...

I'll work until I want to stop, but when I stop, I feel like I'm sitting on a lump of jagged rocks with my bare bottom....so I keep working to try and keep my mind off of it....

If I'm not busy, there's a rare chance that someone will pop up for some obscure reason, to hang out..... but like chewing gum until the flavor's gone, they're off, interests lying elsewhere.

I'm... fairly close to cutting off from the world again now that I'm getting no income or jobs to speak of.

My heart is heavy, eyes are leaking, and no matter what I am, I'm always alone...

There is no human face to which I can smile back on in my memories... my games are worn and gone...

I cry and cry.... and nothing feels better, no matter what I do.


This insanity is going to get to me sooner or later, I can feel it...

anyway.... I'm clocking out for the day...

it's like... 5am, and I've done so much work on making this game all on my own.

Good night.





 
 
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