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So, it's end of the weekend here in Ohio, boooooo!!!! crying crying Today has been a long day, even though it was my fault for going to bed at like six o'clock in the morning this morning and waking up around three this afternoon. rofl I do NOT recommend drinking coffee endlessly through the day, ESPECIALLY during the weekdays because that really messes up a person's sleep schedule to literally NO end, lmfao. rolleyes rofl Caffeine addiction is no joke, so don't be like an Emily and do that!!!! wahmbulance BUT ANYYYYYYYWAAAAAAYYY, Sunday is like the most boring day of the weekend and drags out for whatever ungodly reason. stare Like, I honestly don't know why Saturdays just can't last forever!!! It's the best of the days during the week, am I wrong??? confused I seriously don't want the week to start only because I have a whole mess of appointments coming up and I'm a nervous wreck right now, which may be why I'm drinking a s**t TON of coffee. Which, now that I think about it, isn't helping my anxiety at ALL. rofl rolleyes mad blaugh I really need to get that addiction to coffee under control because there's also a possibility that I could be pregnant again and I don't want to risk this pregnancy even though the stillbirth wasn't my fault and I did everything right. You can literally NEVER be too careful. stressed

So, Monday, I have to figure out what I need to go shopping for like clothes and such because I am in DIRE need of clothes due to the weight gain and drop going up and down like a mother ********. mad mad stressed rolleyes

Tuesday, is my therapy appointment with my therapist to talk out my grief about losing my triplets three months ago and learn how to cope with that and MAYBE talk about marriage counseling because of the effect it's had on my husband and I for the past three months, question exclaim

Wednesday, I don't think I have anything going on thankfully.

Then Thursday is my psychiatrist appointment for discussion about my meds and how they are or aren't helping me.... emo Yay for being traumatized.... emo NOT!!! It SUCKS!!!!! burning_eyes emo scream burning_eyes

Then on the 30th of this month, I have to go a hearing for my disability via phone session because my damn PTSD is so bad I can't even ******** function like a normal ******** person, which is so embarrassing as hell. emo sweatdrop cry Like, I could literally use a vacation just from ALL this generalized stress JUST so I can enjoy life, but thanks to this STUPID coronavirus, I'm always stuck in this nuthouse of a home and super isolated, lmfao. I never thought I'd see the day where I'd ACTUALLY say I REALLY need OUT of the house and go SOCIALIZE because I'm very kept to myself and very shy, so this speaks VOLUMES. Hopefully this pandemic ends soon because I'm feeling like the Human Centipede with how psychotic I'm getting!!! sweatdrop scream wahmbulance Fingers crossed for everyone who feels the exact same way but are in WAY worse situations than I am, I hope everyone is okay. heart heart heart