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What a fine time to break, eh?

I pushed myself so hard, managed to make it far enough, thinking I had found a new light....

but all for naught.

I don't think lonely people are only referring to their bodies, in old age....

but much rather, the time passed, in which people were figuring out themselves.


Destiny among humans is a lie. There is no one that you are DESTINED to be with.

There are a finite group of people that one could be compatible with, but miss your chance with any of them, and that's it.


They belong to others, and the same applies with friends.


Even if that's all you want out of life with others, that is bound to run it's course, too.



-Sigh-



I really wish I had the strength to go on, but now my body is buzzing so hard
I can barely keep my balance, let alone keep my mind straight.


It's just.... really hard to create for the sole purpose of creation, when you're the only one who would care about it.

I'm really not for fueling some sense of egotism or fulfilling some power fantasy....

I just wanted to weave stories for others to enjoy.... but no one cares, so how can I?



I sleep, day and night, getting very little peace from the constant buzzing in my body.... Hoping that this is just a storm I must brave until the next calm.


I'll continue to keep going, even when it is futile.... but, I hope there is a chance that it might not be.