Why is it that the only times I dream it's always about something that really bothers me, or is about something completely random--always with death--and mildly alarming???
the latest is of the first persuasion....and leaving the party when I did today didn't help my distaste for that particular subject....... and neither did a few things Julie said. but....
we're talking about the ridiculous, backwards ways of my mother.
She's become protective in reverse. rolleyes the older, more responsible, and closer I get to college, the more she wants to know every little thing I do. Whereas my entire highschool carreer she hasn't cared if I didn't come home for an entire week.
and, god.... I'm not her!! she's absolutely terrified that if I go to ANYONE'S graduation party, I'll have sex, and get pregnant, and have to get married.... And I'll relive her mistakes. whatever. the more she pushes me to work away my youth, the less work ethic I'll have in college. that's all there is to it. That's the way I work, and that's how it's always been. she knows that.
or at least she should....
Um, hi mom. Have you met Aimee? cute, Blonde, obnoxious beyond belief? about 18? your DAUGHTER???
in other news... I'm kind of in love, and that scares the crap out of me.
Because.... I don't want to be my dad. I don't want to love someone more than they could ever love me.
 Celestialisolde · Mon Jul 10, 2006 @ 05:09am · 0 Comments |
