After having talked to a good old friend about my anxiety relating to the goth subculture it really helped me feel better. It's really nice having someone that understands and just gets you on these things.
Talking to some newer friends as well about this kind of stuff, they also know about all the stigma and division and it's just seemingly endless. It's just so ridiculous. Knowing that I have good friends and people in my community that all feel the same really helps ease my stress and anxiety.
I also brought up the fact that it's mostly because I'm a streamer/content creator which is why I became so stressed and anxious about it all. As something of a public figure I really don't want to upset or offend anyone or cause any issues which is understandable. I'd just hate to have to deal with some sort of backlash while I have anxiety issues as it is.
Thinking more about everything though, I feel a lot more relaxed. I feel mostly secure with myself and my friends and community seem pretty solid. I don't think we will run into any issues and if someone ever does come and try to start s**t, it wont be hard to simply ban them.
And I will take my own advice when it comes to drama. I will simply just not engage if someone ever tries to bring me into any stupid s**t and at this point, knowing and feeling what I do, I don't even care too much anymore either.
