dear peeps who are reading this,
I think I lost him again...
yeah... my boyfriend.
I think he's mad at me. i feel horrible because i know i did something, but i don't know what i did. I feel bad.
The other day I couldn't sleep at night because I thought something bad happened to him. And then next thing you know, I'm throwing my anger and my friends (craig, mostly you)(sorry!). I feel like he doesn't care about me anymore. I can only take one of the two road I've set for myself:
the road where I'm just miserable and lost in a desolation without the guy I love
or
I could just take a road where I try to forget about him along the way and settle down when the time is right
ofcourse if I weren't so emotional right now, I would pick the 2nd one, but I don't know which one to choose now. I guess I'm heading for a sleepless night tonight.
I'm tired of being heartbroken, but that's what I get myself into.
All Mari's fault for choosing what ever i want....
and then letting it get ruined later.
My best friend warned me about falling in love with someone I've met online... ofcourse i was being delusional at first
Now all that I've done is ruin my life here as we know it.
I feel unstabled and tired....
Tired of being heartbroken so many times
and unstabled because I know I would be heartbroken even worse then what has came.
I want to tell my heart sorry... and I need someone to heal my crying, broken heart.
there's no way though....
thank you whoever is reading this.... it might sound all mushy but I guess that's how i feel right now
sincerely,
Mari
 Mari Lambo · Thu Aug 03, 2006 @ 09:37pm · 2 Comments |
