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Healing my Shadow The inner shadow is the part of us that is forbidden and hidden. It is the part of us that we are taught is shameful and undesirable. I'm here to bond with mine.


o PeachPuff o
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• Negative Emotions •
Are there negative emotions you try to avoid? Why?

Of course there are. There are emotions like anger and sadness that I try to avoid, because truly, I feel those emotions don't do anything beneficial. Getting sad and getting angry just hurts the self or people around me, so I do the very possible best I can to avoid getting angry. When it comes to getting sad, I simply have to prepare for unexpected sadness.

I am diagnosed with what is called "True Depression", often referred to as Chronic or Clinical Depression, so sometimes sadness creeps up on me and other times sadness is dropped on me like a baby grand piano from the 5th floor of a 10 story building. There never seems to be a chance to snap out of it. Once the sadness hits, it overstays its welcome and refuses to leave. My options for sadness are to take preventative measures or simply ride it out and wait.

Once the depression actually comes, it's there to stay. So I try to avoid that by simply keeping my mind busy, but sometimes even that is not enough to keep depression from crashing into me.

I am not a person that gets angry. I am diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and for me, my mood shifts from a manic positive to a manic negative, similar to Bi-Polar disorder. In my case, I shift from confident to anxious far too intensely and far too quickly. It's rare for me to actually become angry, but when it does come, it's typically related to my BPD induced Anxiety.

I can easily avoid anger. That's not a problem anymore. I don't have any disorders that necessarily cause anger issues, so I can understand and let go of my anger a little easier. I understand that anger is a choice and I choose not to waste my time or energy on something that irritates me, especially if it's something that I cannot change, like a natural occurrence or someone's own beliefs or will.

I can worry about myself and how I treat others. That is in my control.





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