happy for the first time in a long time [my friend]
as you all have read i my other entry's life has been a b***h but it has it's good times to...like i just got a job and before that i was getting paid $60 a week and now more...i'll be starting school soon and i'm nervous but all well i'll get over it...my boy friend and me are some what over not really but it seems like we are and this is bad news for him but for some reason i'm not crying i mean i still love him and all, i think i'v just been so used to getting hurt my body and mind doesn't care any more i just want to be who i really am and not what other people think i should be so ******** the s**t that has happend in the past and ******** what people think about me i'm 17 and my whole life i'v done nothing but s**t for other peolpe and get nothing but "******** you!" and pushed me away so i was never givin the chance to do stupid things and go hang with my friends and now i'm going to and that's that...now with the boyfriend thing i'll date and hopefully meet my speacial some one but for now i dont know who he is or where he's at so i'll just keep waiting for him...well i'll stop boring you with my life...peace love ya!!!