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Well. As you can obviously see, I have not updated this journal in quite some time. The reason for this... is kind of hard to explain, but I'll try my best to write my thoughts in some coherent words. I am currently sitting at my desk in my parents' house located in New Jersey, which means my fantastic adventures in Japan have ceased to be. My final days there were quite exhilarating to say the least. My Japanese friends and I bar hopped to new extremes, I ate exquisite meals, etc. etc. etc. However, that week was so terribly sad, that I could not find the strength to write down everything in this journal. You see, that was a once in a lifetime thing... saying goodbye to my Japanese friends, to Kanazawa, a town where I have lived for 4 months... four truly magical months, where I lived my dreams. Now, I dont know the next time I will be going to Japan. I dont know the next time I will ever go to Kanazawa, of all places. My friends that I met, I will probably never see again. But they will always be there, aging with me, in my memories, and in my heart, not in this data-text format, or whatever you want to consider this journal. It feels like a dream, a beautiful dream that you never wanna wake up from... but when you do, and the memory of the dream starts to slowly fade, you sorta dont want to write down what happened in that dream, for you know it will never be as good as the time the dreamt the dream. Fleeting moments are just that... and should remain as such.

All I hope, is that whenever I say the "World is Small," it applies to everyone I met in Japan, and that one day, somewhere and sometime, my path will cross with all those fantastic people I met in Kanazawa and Osaka.

So I sit here, exactly one week since I sat on a plane, a planeride that introduced me to yet another fantastic Japanese friend, who I am currently talking to via emails. But it feels like years ago... as my Japanese language ability slowly fades, despite my persistent attempts to read my textbooks over and over again. Funny story, I took the placement test for my next year of language, and I failed completely hahah. Did the Japan trip ever happen? My Japanese friends have yet to email me back... did they ever exist?

Of course. Always in the confines of my mind.

So back in America, living a larger than life lifestyle, buying designer clothing and shopping in upperclass malls. Currently, today, my dad got a Bar, so I helped assemble that, and I didn't go out and party sadly. I have a good friend to meet tomorrow for brunch, and another friend to meet for dinner, but besides that, this weekend has been lazy lazy. I've just been dancing, reading books, and studying Japanese I suppose.

Monday I get all four wisdom teeth yanked, so I should be out of commission for a couple days, but it will be party time after that, trust me.

Okay. Well, here I am. Back in the land of opportunity, and I am trying to get back on the right path.