Ah... it's been forever since I've written an entry in here, and since someone just happened to be reading them, I thought I'd update.
I'm not going out with Desi nor Psy, I'll likely never see or hear anything from them ever again. I'd shed a tear for this remorseful situation, but I'll refrain. I put a good part of myself to blame for it. All of it. In the end, what more was Psy to me than a guilty mistake I tried to fix? What fault could I avoid when Des fell in love with him? And who am I to blame but myself for my suspicions that I was being left out. It was true, I'm afraid, but it was my own err. I'll spend no time lamenting over my past, but move on.
I am without a lover and whether I deserve one or am worthy of one, I know not. Whether I could remain loyal or am worth 2 cents in bed, I do not know. I know that I have one lady that seems to think I am worth something, and that is Night, Daughter of Night, to whom I offered the name Eve. It is up to her if she should choose to continue to use that name or not. I have also met Juno, who is also a worthy woman. Neither of these women are women of my fantasies, nor should I choose to chase after them, so think not of that. They are noble, kind women who I have met in my travels and would enjoy further company of.
My stay at Angel Sanctuary doesn't seem to be working so well, though I enjoy speaking with Rosiel, since every time we speak, he seems to straighten me out so well so quickly. It's hard to believe a guy like that often finds he can't live with himself. I find that I can't be near him enough. It's strange that it... it actually hurts not to be near him enough.
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