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Can't stop shaking. Don't blame me, cause I know it's my fault. Stop acting like I don't blame myself. I do. It always happens when I'm there. I know that. I'm a horrible little sister, can't do anything, can't save anyone, can't stop em. Gotta shake it off, gotta break free, get loose, save her.

I don't trust them anymore. But that's alright, his and her circumstances don't trust me.

Can't face anyone, can't live through this, gotta live through this, gotta shake the feeling, gotta run, gotta hide, there's the gun.

He knew what to do, just like being with you, can't blame you, his and her circumstances.

Always my fault, always there but not, can't stop it, not strong enough, afraid to do anything, afraid to possibly break.

It's too late for that. I've broken, I've been broken, I let the brokenness overcome.

"I'd be happy to die for a taste of what Angel had"

Don't die for it girls, she lost it, never had it, gave it away for a summer fling, summer loving, it all goes away.

Don't feel like a toy anymore, it means I've used you.

Not an Angel, can't be an Angel, impossible, Angel wants to be gone. Be cast away. Mental miscarriage. Body rejects it, rejects a most sacred part. Not wanted, not needed, stop crying, they tell you it's alright but it's not.

Gotta watch, can't stop anything, like a kid who can't stop Daddy from raping Mommy, hiding in the closet, watching everything, afraid to move, afraid to breathe...

Paper's not allowed to catch the tears, gotta write without shaking, or they'll know.

Oh, do you know? They always know.

Throbbing, in places that shouldn't hurt, but are supposed to. Head, heart, shaking hands...

Not worth it, don't stop me, life can't go back and refuses to go foward.

"What hurts the most... was being so close..."

Sitting right ******** there.

Mental miscarriage. Rejection. And outrage. For shame, disgrace. You should have killed her the moment she came...

"There are worse things I could do...

... But to cry in front of you..."

Why, that's a thing I'll never do.