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When I logged onto World of Warcraft last night, one of my guild members said that apparently I was beautiful because Roger said so. It feels really nice to have someone you really like call you beautiful, especially when you can never see yourself that way.
My ex-boyfriend, Kevin, called me beautiful once, but I didn't feel anything as I did when Roger called me beautiful. I don't think it means that I like Roger more, because I love Kevin with all my heart, even though we aren't a couple anymore. I dont' feel any remorse for breaking up with him, nor do I want him back, I guess it's because I always saw Kevin as an older brother before he showed interest in me as a girlfriend. Also, since Kevin and I are still friends, it doesn't hurt to still love him.
I remember when I first met Roger. Roger was the person that helped make me realize that Kevin wanted to be with me. When Roger first moved here everyone talked about him because of his black trench coat and long hair, it was like, you dont' see these things in this small town. I personally didn't care about what he looked like, I was just interested in seeing which group he would fall into. Well, a lot of people never knew Roger's name, so Jolene and Tyler decided to give Roger a name instead of just asking him what his name was. They called him Karl, and for a while some people thought his name was actually Karl. I knew his name from day one because he was put into my history class. Roger would always come into history and sit on the end, and not really talk to anybody, but I would call him over to sit near me and my friends so he would know that we weren't like terrible monsters or anything. So then one day I introduced him to all my friends, and how quickly he became friends with everybody was amazing.
I remember we brought him to Channy's party. She had just got back from a three month stay in France and she was creeped out because the first week she was back, everywhere she went, Roger just happened to be there and she thought he was stalking her or something because she had never seen him before. Tybu and I wanted to bring Roger to her party, so we did, and Tybu kept hitting Roger's hot dogs into the fire just to be annoying. Dave and Cory were extremely hyper as always, and I got caught in the middle which resulted in a few bruises the next day. In the end, it was fun party, and that's where he got the picture of Roger's caveman persona (Rodge-Rodge). He was holding a stick, and the expression on his face... it was cute.
Anyways, Roger thinks I'm beautiful! heart That's all that matters. He already told me he found me attractive ("I could never do any sexual act with someone I found to be unattractive, so, well, obviously, I find you attractive to me" wink but saying something like that, and saying someone's beautiful is completely different. It made me so happy.
Also, I had the weirdest dream last night. There was this guy going around killing people in the most gruesome ways (it was the goriest dream I can ever remember having) and then he came after me, and I was all like, "Okay, this is mildly discomforting, but sure." And I just stood there while he hacked away at me with a machete, being completely indifferent to what was happening. It was like "I'm being murdered, what's the big deal."
I think I watch too many horror movies.
urfuct · Mon Sep 25, 2006 @ 04:51pm · 0 Comments |
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