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Oh God, I'm so hungry! Why must the price of beauty be so high! *raises arms to the sky in melodramatic pose*
No. Seriously. There's a lot of times when I can't eat the things I wish to eat in order to maintain my weight. I've spent so much time and energy becomming the person I am in terms of looks that I can't possibly throw it all away just for a ol' fashioned cheese burger (not that I would ever eat a cheese burger being the strict vegetarian that I am). I'm caught in a whirlwind of envy, disgust and pity for certain girls that do not take the time and energy that I do to be beautiful.
Girls like Amanda... Today, again, I saw her eating a poutine for lunch and a bag of chips. For those who may read this that don't know what a poutine is, it's a French-Canadian dish. Basically, it's fries (or chips or whatever...) covered in gravy and melted cheese. Before I chose to become a vegetarian, I also liked to enjoy a poutine once in a while. However, Amanda eats them everyday.
Does she not know how much calories are in the poutine alone, without adding the like four hundred calories from the bag of chips and then getting a bottle of Pepsi on top of that which adds another two hundred calories to her diet? It makes me angry that while I'm here, working so hard to be healthy and beautiful, other girls are just... not doing it. They don't care, and yeah, they don't have to worry about calorie counting or anything like that, but there's something else about those girls that I'll have to get to later because my grandmother is calling me.
Okay, that thing that was going to talk about. It was the fact that a lot of those girls act like they are hot stuff and that they "aren't that fat." Oh how wrong they are. How wrong they are. There is nothing that irks me more then seeing a person try to wear clothes that are smaller then they actually should be wearing. Oh, and how half the fat girls at my school do it! >.< Not to mention that a lot of girls (fat or not) are always touchy feely with a lot of guys at my school. The majority of my guy friends tell me they don't like that but they put up with it anyways. I'm not talking about just hugs and stuff, but like trying to sit inbetween the guys' legs and cuddle up to them during a movie. I mean, yeah, I do that too, but only under certain circumstances, like a boyfriend. They are such whores, and I can't stand it.
...Okay, there was one time where I did the whole thing, and went pretty far with him. But that was different. I really did like him, possibly loved him. I know I love him as a friend, but I could easily learn to love him in other ways, trust me. He liked me too, a lot. Also, what we did wasn't that spontaneous, we talked about doing it first, and the implications it would have on our friendship, since we didn't want to have a boyfriend girlfriend relationship because he was leaving to go back to his home...
If he had still lived here, we would have dated. People thought were actually were dating for a while. It was because of the demon baby talk. Every day we would say that we were making demon babies together. And, well, if him and I ever did reproduce, it probably would be a bit of a demon child. lol.
urfuct · Wed Oct 04, 2006 @ 09:19pm · 0 Comments |
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