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	What A Day...
	What A Day...


Today was rather...eventful. Excuse me if I make any typos...I kinda drunk...5% alcohol stuff...bladder's full up though...>_< Anyways...this is like the 3rd journal entry I've made today. And...ugh...forget what I said in the 2nd one about me not being on Gaia for a while...screw that...I'm staying. No problems are gonna keep me from getting on Gaia. I drank. I finally got to drink alcohol. And...I already have a hangover. Just got home a few minutes ago. Turned on the comp and typed stuffed down. I feel so insecure though...I'm gonna try to stay up for a few reasons. One, I'm insecure at the moment...like I'm gonna pay for what I said earlier. Two, I NEED to talk to my Love...I miss him so... Three, if I miss him (which is more likely to happen if I try to sleep now because of drinking) and he gets online, I'd get crankier...it happens often...and the outcome isn't always pretty. Anyways...we just went out because it was my cousin's birthday. Went bar-hopping. Finally got to drink 5% alcohol drink. Felt...different...yet good. Guess that's all...I'll TRY to stay up. I'll be reading about revolutions -- French, American, etc. I wanna keep myself busy... Mary Hiryu · Sat Oct 21, 2006 @ 04:40pm · 2 Comments


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	MARY!!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?!? Listen to me! I know things may seem bad... but don't go making them harder for yourself! You are too young for alcohol! I know things look bad... and I know they aren't exactly good... But remember this: Know that the facts won't change, so change your attitude. If you just wait and wait... nothing is going to happen Mary... you have to take action and DO something! Offline AnnaBanana` · Community Member · Tue Oct 24, 2006 @ 01:25am


	Whoa, whoa. Ease up there, Anna. It's 5% alcohol...and it wasn't even one bottle. I drank from my cousin's bottle. Only about 1/3 of it was what I drank. You think that I haven't tried anything? I can't do anything actively -- I have no choice but to do things passively. The best way to do that is to show them that I am not affected by the things I do, or the things that they do. One way is through my studies -- school. I took a great fall after what had happened -- and then I didn't get much sleep since Hayato was like my therapist or something. I'd stay up late talking to him, waiting for him to get online. I wouldn't get much sleep. The most sleep I'd get was 6 hours the most. I get up at 5 in the morning for school, and I sleep at around 12. If not, then I stay up the whole way. Or, I wake up in the middle of the night, at around 1 or 2, and he's online, so I talk all the way until he has to go, or until I have to get out of bed and get ready for school. I have been trying to change. It'd for the better. I know that I am very problematic and whiny and annoying. That's just the little immature kid that I still am. I've messed my own life up by getting affected with all these things. It's very pathetic of me, really...getting affected...pssh... I can't do much. I'm...not what people expect me to be. I'm just...so...I don't know...I'm kinda going through some kind of identity crisis or something. But I know what I am, what I can be, and what I can do. It's just that at times, I just don't know who or what I am... Offline Mary Hiryu · Community Member · Tue Oct 24, 2006 @ 04:35am

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