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I had a really long week. . .that's why I haven't been on for a while. . .My birthday was this saturday that passed. . .the 15th. . .and well a couple of my friends came over to the party and well of course it was full of drama. . .I had a Fever of 101.6. . .on my Birthday!!! Omg stare anyhoo, Vickki digs this guy named Angel and well now they are going out. She one time asked me of what I thought of him before they were going out, I told her my honest opinion. I told her I didn't really like him that much, but hey I don't know him so I can't really say anything about that. She got really offended and stuff saying, "Your the 1st one to have said that. All my other friends say that they like him and everything." Well I didn't tell her then but what the hell am I suppose to do? Tell her what she wants to hear? No, I'm not like anyone else. So I don't want her to think I'm just like everyone else. She accused me of hating him, I'm like WTF??? I don't even know him for Gods sake!!! She has to always be full of drama, and be over dramatic. What I didn't like about him was the fact of what my other best friends Kacie and Raiyne said. They said that he went up to them and started saying stuff. I told that to Vikki and I told her that's what I didn't like about him. Then she went all strange saying they were lying. I got offended so much. I knew Vikki for like what? 1 year? I knew Raiyne for about 12 years and Kacie for like 4. They have never lied to me, never. And Vikki well she has, a lot. Who do you expect me to belive? Of course them, even if they might of been lying I would still be on their side. Most of all Raiyne I love her so much as a little sister, and I really can get over protective of her at times. I try not to show it, and I do brag about her. She's younger then me by 2 years but I still don't care. Well anyhoo, Vikki started ignoring me after that. I had no idea what for. I assumed the phone call we had. I thought to my self fine if she wants to ignore me for the whole lying thing fine I don't care. She hurts me so much, but knowing that she accused Raiyne and Kacie like that, I rather belive them. Such a big deal about that. domokun Well It was days after the party that she didn't pay attention to me. I felt like she was my mom that one time I went through ignoring her for a week without talking. Yesterday my friend Christian called me saying what's up with you and Vikki? I told him stuff about I don't remember now. . .but it was basically telling him about Raiyne and the party and stuff. He told me he would call me later. Then a few moments passed and the phone rang I picked up hearing Vikki's voice. I was like oh s**t here we go now. Then she asked what the ******** was my problem. I was so shocked she asked me that. She was the one being childish and ignoring me. I didn't have the strength to fight back with her. So she just yelled and screamed at me. It hurt so much, for her being my first actual person that I could sare my feelings with and talk to. She asked me what the ******** was with all the people telling her that I was jealous (sorry if don't know how to spell it) of her and Angel. I found that so funny! She said that I was jealous because everyone got hooked up cept me. That didn't even pass through my head! Yeah a lot of people got there groove on, but that didn't bother me. I thought it was funny about the fact that almost everyone made out that day. I had a fever and I was sick, I wouldn't have made out with anyone even if I had the chance. Oh, I don't think Vikki knew that so well when she was practically not even there. I have a crush on Yami's brother, Isaac, and I was a bit sad, at the fact he didn't come! Other than that me being jealous is a load of bull. The only time now if I get jealous is if it has anything to do with Isaac. Other than that, no. Vikki seems to care of what everyone is telling her. I don't really care about what people think, only for Isaac I do. Well Vikki started screaming at me even more. She started saying something about a problem. I told her well I'm sorry. Then she kept goin on and on. I told her I'm sorry for being a problem. And she told me that's right you ARE a problem. That sliced me so much, it sliced my heart into peices. I have grown up being called a problem so much. I'm a walking problem, that's how I see it. She accused me for lying which I'm not sure of what. And I know for a FACT I haven't lied to her lately at all. I knew what she was saying was a load of crap. But I took it in. Let her scream at me I don't care. If she doesn't want me as a problem then fine. She can do want she wants, I have no say anyway. While she yelling at me I kinda felt funny. Not a good funny. I felt my heart beat hard agaisnt my chest. I started to get hot and weak, the room was spinning. So fast, I already had so much stess, that wasn't good. I told I'll call her back and she said fine. I fell off the chair in pain. I couldn't get up. I told Sergio a while ago that I think I have a problem. One which I get really hurt easily by. That did it, the screaming the pain. I called Yami which she was at the Hospital, I felt bad calling her though. I told her what happened and she said to calm down, your having a panic attack. She said she would call Vikki and talk to her. So she called her and she called me in less than 10 min. She told me that Vikki was yelling at her too. Yami told me we need to stop talking to each other for a while, a long while. I agree so much. Well that's the end of my story of this week. What ever, I hope that Yami will get better soon. xp . . . sad
Kitsunechan4 · Sat Jan 22, 2005 @ 09:49pm · 3 Comments |
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