Chaos
by: Ahiru
How is it, with so much chaos,
I sit here unsettled, moved by no one,
only fake imitations
that would appear to others as love?
I am alone, with only broken dreams and lingering
fears
that contribute to all the failures.
I have so much to say, yet it comes out as nothing.
I sit thinking of you, writing these words for you,
hoping and living my life for you.
I do not know your smile, your face,
not even your name. or do I?
Am I crazy?
I don't know you, yet I constantly think about you.
I live every day in hopes of meeting you someday.
Everywhere I go, I look for you,
in crowds, stores, walking down the street,
even in my dreams.
I must be insane if I can't even find you in my
dreams.
There is this feeling,
this intense, gut-wrenching feeling of your existence,
In every breath I take.
But where could you be?
Could you be out there,
somewhere in this mixed up world looking for me?
If only I knew your name or your face,
why can't I know that much?
Why can't you know?
Maybe you do know, but you're afraid.
No way, if you had the feelings I have for you,
and you knew me, you would not hold back,
you would not be able to.
So I can only think
you, too, are frightened about your loneliness.
I hate to think you have to live through
the days and nights as I do,
feeling so much pain.
Tears well within my eyes...
At times when I am thinking not of myself,
I truely I tear for you.
