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Dear Journal: 10/13/06


i'm going through stress and it's horrible, everyones telling me to take cathy back but...
it's not that easy, theres only so many times a person can be crushed and expect not to turn away she
has killed me my pain can not be kept closed if she really wanted my friendship she would have said
something by now right? i know she doesn't give a s**t and thats what pisses me off everyones falling
for her damn sappy story ("Oh im scared!,""I'm confused..." wink what the hell ever i'm done so by monday
she will have her stuff back and i'll be free forever and she can get what she has always wanted, Me to
be out of her life forever... so i guess it works both ways huh? i'm to tired to cry anymore isn't that sad?
i'm to upset to fix my room bad me... I'm so depressed, i'll eat myself to death. "YAY!! ME!!" my new
favorite playlist "SAD MUSIC..." But hey who cares? i mean cathy never did, i feel so stupid, i thought
we could be the friends who sticked togetheer forever, silly me, i'm such a dumb a** thinking such foolish
things, i should just become a mute it might be better for me i mean i am planning on quiting choir, i mean
why would i wanna go into choir just so i would start crying in frount of everyone and looking stupid. hey
i know, i could drop out of high school and live in a abandon house with lots of cats as my new and only
friend's.