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Superman No More
'b*****d!
******** b*****d!
You knew all along! You knew it, didn't you?
Do you worry that you're not liked?
Say something! Anything!
If I shake your shoulders any harder, I'm afraid your head will roll off your shoulders. So for God's sake, you b*****d, answer me!
Don't just sit there!
How long 'til you break?
Just open your mouth! Speak the words! Tell me you knew! Tell me, damn it!
You're happy 'cause you smile
You had to have known. Somewhere inside, you knew that this would eventually happen. You knew it. And you didn't stop it... You didn't stop it, you ******** b*****d!'
There's a resounding smack as I slap your face. Still no reply. Open your mouth!
But how much can you fake?
I slap you again... And again... Anything to get some kind of reaction out of you. But you're still sitting there...
Staring...
[******** b*****d...
/An ordinary person, an ordinary name.../
Eyes glazed and fogged over, staring right past me. Right through me. I wish you'd look at me when I'm talking to you, damn it!
I wish you'd look at anything!
/But ordinary's just not good enough today/
I scream at you, call you names, shake your body harder.
Yet still you stare, your eyelashes slightly clumped together with dried blood. The blood on your eyelashes only seems to enrage me further.
And I slap you again. Willing you to look at me. Willing you to speak to me. Willing you...
/Are you worried about your faith?/
Your body starts to slump forward with the impacts of my roughness, and I sturdy you upright again. And just as I bring my hand back to slap you again... Raised in midair...
I stop...
/Kneel down and obey/
And drop to my knees, putting me face to face with you. Eye to eye. Although you're still staring past me into some great unknown. Some void I'm not part of.
And I whisper to you. Brokenly. Begging you to tell me. Pleading with you to tell me you knew.
/You're happy, you're in love./
You don't answer.
So I take you into my arms and embrace you. Rocking. Your head cradled on my shoulder. I can't see your face now, but there's no doubt in my mind that your eyes are still blankly gaping. Haunting.
And I whisper your name. I whisper "I love you". I tell you I need you. My salvation. My destruction.
/You need someone to hate/
And I hate you for it. I hate you for making me love you. I hate you for not telling me... Telling me that...
That...
/An ordinary person, and ordinary day/
So there's no use to your silence now. Because I've figured it out. I've realized that you knew all along.
I move your head off my shoulder, taking your chin in between my fingers.
I stare through your caked eyelashes into your distant amethyst.
And you stare past me...
/But ordinary's just not good enough today/
And strangely enough...
I begin to cry.
Tears stream down my face. And I feel something warm and sticky flowing over the arm I have wrapped around your middle.
Warm... Like my tears.
And although you're here in my arms, I am completely alone.
Alone, alone, alone, alone, alone, alone, alone, alone
I wipe my tears against your face, streaking the paths of blood that had dried across your pale skin. Marking my own face with the red.
And I just want you to tell me why...
Why? You knew all along.
/I'm thinking why is Superman dead?/
Didn't you?
Is it in my head?
And through the tears, a strange little laugh creeps from my throat. And I let it flow...
We'll just laugh instead
Until I start to choke on it. Inhaling deeply through my lungs.
The coppery smell pierces my senses.
And I start to cry again. Staring straight into your eyes. Rocking you. Whispering...
/You worry about the weather and/
"Why?"
"Why?"
"Why?"
/Whether or not you should hate/
I hate you for loving me. I hate me for loving you. But most of all I hate you for not telling me...
And now I can't make you speak.
/Doesn't anybody ever know.../
I close your eyelids for you.
Why didn't you tell me that...
/That the world's a subway?
That we were on a subway ride.
And your stop was coming up next.
I'm thinking why is Superman dead?/
... "Why?"...
The End
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 SikFox · Fri Nov 24, 2006 @ 10:01pm · 0 Comments |
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